The ending of 2019 was not one of my best as I adjusted to the loss of my job back in October. Although I chose to leave considering the events that would occur in 2020, there is no doubt I would be jobless by the end of March. I am confident made in my decision to step down rather than enduring the treatment I was getting.
Meanwhile, 2020 started with some swift changes as I decided it was in my best interest to get the cochlear implant. I am tired of struggling and competing against those that have their hearing. I cannot compete with that. I am tired of those in the professional world, thinking that one with a disability is not as capable when it comes to job performance. My experience so far, most of my life, is people focus so much on the barriers I face due to my loss rather than allowing me to overcome the barriers or find alternatives to help me succeed. I have experienced more aggression against my disability than those that see me as a person with talent.
On March 5, 2020, I got the cochlear implant surgery done. During this time, the COVID-19 pandemic began to surface, and things started to become real regards to this new virus. I was faced with limited access to medical supplies due to the panic; luckily, I had some leftover rubbing alcohol and other supplies. It took about two weeks to recover enough I could function. I think the worse part was the dizziness. I could barely stand longer than a few minutes without feeling nausea aside from the aches and pain.
After my two weeks of recovery, I was faced with more changes: dance classes canceled and sudden closure of the public schools. It was the craziest time, not knowing what was going on, and the communication was either lacking or scattered. Eventually, I pulled it together, got my sign language class running online, and began hosting virtual dance classes. It was a quick decision with little time to plan or think things out. These new methods brought both excitement and anxieties not only for me but for students. I thought, well, this can’t last forever, and run the classes online for one session or semester and wait things out.
Virtual Dance Classes Online
Dance online brought curiosity among the kids undergoing something different. By the fourth class, the online class became more challenging, especially for the younger kids. It was difficult keeping the kids’ attention. Children do better with physical contact or connection. The virtual experience could not replace that. I started the classes in the last few weeks of March. It is now almost the end of May, and the kids are tolerating the virtual dance classes. More than half have discontinued the online dance lessons. I don’t blame them because it is impersonal and too challenging to follow. They are not getting the experience they desire or need. I have a few students that do not enjoy the camera experience. It has been stressful and tough for those students. I do not mind the camera; however, most kids are not used to this new method. I am not sure they will ever get used to it. I still have twelve active kids that appear online. Only eight show up weekly, others come and go.
My conclusion with online virtual dance is okay for about four sessions. Anything after four sessions is all downhill for most. Here is my experience with virtual dance lessons.
- Kids cannot keep their attention spans long enough for a full dance period online. I felt terrible pushing them to stay with me after we had completed the necessary exercises and routine. There were times I had to push through ten to fifteen minutes, keeping them moving. It was simply too much. If you have to do online dance, it is best to keep it cut to 30 minutes.
- I had to keep telling the kids to watch, listen, get off the couch, get off the bed, stand up, do the steps with me as they were continually sitting and running off. It was very frustrating because half paid attention, and others were not. I had parents complaining their kids didn’t know the move or understand the routine (although they were the same kids not paying attention.) This added stress for me and the other dancers. When in a classroom environment, there are ways to help correct behaviors without calling them out. Virtual online class it is not possible. Sometimes we had to stop the class to see who was there and find out where they were (did they leave, are they on the bed, so forth).
- The online virtual class is a one-way communication; whereas, I dislike this the most. I felt like I was talking at the kids. There was no connection, and it was impossible to teach and connect. I had to stop and see who was there, ask how they were doing, so forth, which lead to the entire class sitting down and me telling them to stand up again. It was frustrating for them and me. The lack of contact, connection, and communication was not good. We tried different things to balance it out. Sometimes it worked, other times not so much. The one thing I learned the most with virtual classes is that kids need feedback they need to know you are watching so you can give them feedback that is specific for them. For example, Andre, your turns look great, or I love how you worked on your leaps. When I would ask the kids to perform for me, most would clam up. I think they didn’t put in half the effort as they would in a classroom environment.
Overall, I think online dance is okay if you are doing one on one to help a student catch up, go through techniques they are struggling with, or aid them to improve in specific areas. It is not ideal for replacing a classroom. Exercise routines can easily adjust, but when it comes to children, they need physical contact.
Adult Sign Language Online
The overall conclusion with my sign language class was enjoyable. When the class first started, I think we were all a bit ambitious about the opportunity to try it online. I used interactive instruction to ensure that the students were not just observing but participating. I think once we got to class four, we realized that the online interaction was not the same. Students began to express that they miss the opportunity to interact in pairs with their classmates. Sign language can be taught online; yes, however, to master the art of signing, it requires actual interaction. I think it was a good experience for my students as they learn that interaction is the key to improving in sign language. Once again, virtual learning provided opportunities; however, it also limited extended opportunities. Students are ambitious to continue through the summer months. We decided instead of doing an online session, and we wanted to meet face to face by meeting up at the park and other locations.
Learning online is a powerful tool, especially for those that do not have access to learn otherwise in a classroom setting. It cannot replace a dance class, especially for children. While adults do better with online classes, even my students have demonstrated the need for personal interaction.
I have been fortunate to have still the opportunity to work online when many have lost their jobs. March was filled with ambition and curiosity, leading to April trying to come up with creative ways to keep the classes going. At the beginning of May, I was not as ambitious to turn on the computer and missed seeing my students face to face. It is now the middle of May, and it is getting harder to look forward to class. I am burnt out from being locked in the house without the freedom to leave and relocate. If the weather were suitable, I would have attempted to do my sign class on my patio, which would make a difference for a few weeks.
I am looking forward to my camping trip this weekend to get out of the house. I think the pandemic has left an impact on many people. The idea of working from home sounds great, and many are discovering that maybe it is not as exhilarating as it appears. Being home every day all day is not fun, where home should be where you go to get away from the world and relax. Right now, my house is filled with too many activities and not a place for me to escape. Lockdown is not natural. Being stuck in an office building is not natural. We need to start focusing on more natural lighting and natural environments.